questioning my self and who I am
So recently iv been questioning if I really know who or what I am, and imagine I'm probably not the only person who is dose or even has.
iv always just seen myself as a male sub that dressed up for partners cuz it's what they liked and was doing it to serve them and lean in to being a sub for them, but recently I'm not so sure. Recently, iv enjoyed it more for myself, especially since I got my new breast plate and also the first thing that isn't just a cheap throw-away item. i love the look and the feel of them they make me feel really good to the point ild wear them myself, even if there no play involved and have now brought myself an outfit that's not just a sexy time sub outfit but something a bit nicer, more of a party going out outfit (not that I'd have the confidence to do so)
Another thing that happened is on my pornhub account, some of my content iv got on there had its label changed from male bi and gay solo to trans. From what I can tell, this is from people's suggestions about what the content was, and iv had some people message me as if I was a woman, to which I corrected and they apologized (not that I had an issue with it), and they asked me what il go by, and am then i realized I'm not entirely sure myself
i got the new breast plate and once I got used to it and actually tried wearing it for a long time i did sit there thinking about what it be like to have real one and weather or not i should or could and i settled on no but the reason i came to it was cuz due to friends and family, and if i was estranged from them some where on my own with no one i think it be somthing i would posibly be more enclined to explore more
The new dress iv ordered is the first time iv bought something, cuz I think it's nice and want something nice to try, and not bought cuz iv been asked or told to or for any sort of kink activities
The people who message as if I were a woman, it did make me feel really good about myself and about the stuff I've done and posted, and correcting them made me question myself and look back on other things, like iv said above and im not sure who i am what i am or what any of that makes me iv been able to speek to some people that are close to me about it and not been able to awser it but made me less concered and worryed about not being sure or knowing
Any advice? Any ideas? What do you think or see?